Educational Covid 2020.

This year hasn't been the best for everybody, but maybe this year wasn't so bad after all? I've learned alot during this lengthy lockdown period about myself, others and about what new steps I want to take in order to grow and become a better human for myself. I believe that this year has been about connecting with your inner self. I believe that this year is here to teach us that happiness is about the smaller things in life. Happiness is small and we've all been blinded by this fact. As described before in my blog happiness is a personal thing and everybody has their own different things that make them happy. Maybe yours is your morning cup of coffee, hearing your mothers voice, maybe it's seeing your friends or your crushes name pop up on your phone screen. It could be connecting with your inner self and being kind to yourself by relaxing in the candle lit bath whilst reading a book, listening to your favourite song, or choosing to start making a new career path or new goals you never felt inspired or had the time to create before.

I believe that this year is here to teach us that happiness is a small thing and can be achieved easily if we just take a few moments away from the constant madness of London city and for once take time for ourselves. Living in such a crazy and highly populated city we are constantly surrounded by friends, people and our busy life schedules that we very rarely are able to get time to ourselves. We get lost in the chaotic everyday lifestyle and pressures surrounding us.

I believe that this year is trying to teach us that the small little moments are not actually small moments at all and that they have always mattered. By taking time out you acknowledge the importance of them and how much we rely and appreciate them. They have always held a big weight on to our hectic lives. We have never really been able to crack into this much time for ourselves before. At first it's highly daunting, we have never had this much time to ourselves and we never like to have this much time alone because we start channelling into our self thoughts and issues about ourselves. We start focusing on us and to most people the feeling is alienated and scary. It gives you a sense of anxiety and it feels like a personal attack.

I truly believe that this year although it's been very testing for us all, emotional and insane.I believe it's trying to teach us how to reconnect with ourselves, our goals and most importantly how we feel about our current path in life, our people around us and how we feel about ourselves. I believe that it is trying to educate us that connections between the people around us are so much more than physical. That honest true love is surrounding us no matter what situation life throws at us. It's taught me that you can touch the people around us without actually touching them by simply using our most powerful tool, our words. Although we are all so distant from each other and socially spaced out we are actually way more connected than we have ever been in our lives. It's reminding us that this connection is sacred. We need to all take care of each other no matter what life throws at us.

We are all humans trying to swim through life together, all different problems, worries and stresses. We need to support each other more than ever with the power of words. It's making you pay attention to the fact that we have powerful connections with some phenomenal humans that save us, motivate us, who heal us and who makes you want to get up in the morning and succeed and do better. We all have alot more time for each other to truly focus on supporting other peoples life goals, paths to take and interests.

It's teaching us on the other side of things too, the negatives. The bad influences that you're surrounded by. Whether it's people, habits, commitments or a job issue. Things that really don't make us feel good but we never had a moment to pause and reflect on that. The things in your life which is 'clutter'. It's not inspiring you and now that the whole world has slowed down you're now able to see this and make steps to remove it.

This Covid period has taught me that I need to tell people that I love them more than ever, you never know whats around the corner or when it's too late. I believe this year has been designed for us to take a step back and learn not to take things for granted. It's so easily done when you constantly have it. But when it's gone, you're lost at a deep blue choppy sea.

This year I lost one of my favourite influencial humans Momodou who was like a father to me. He pulled me out of a wreckage and he fought his powers to make sure than my life was amazing again and he stayed with me all the way through even though sometimes his life wasn't the greatest. Rest in peace king. I will always write about him, speak highly of him and tell stories of him forever. This broke my absolute heart but it also woke me up that I have to keep progressing to make him constantly proud, I need to do better. I feel I have woken up. I never in a million years would of thought he'd pass away. So keep your loved ones close, and tell them everyday you love them because you never know one day all you're left with is a voicemail machine, old messages, photos and memories and that is when it really hits you deep.

It's taught me that we are resilient and we have hope. It's teaching us to let go of things that used to seem like a big deal but in reality it's not. We are all so wrapped up in the media and what others are doing that we have not noticed these small little things that are making a big impact on our future.

We are courageous human beings and we can literally make it through anything even though our lives are feeling super uncertain at the moment and we are not in our usual territories. Our lives are so uncertain that anything at any given time can simply be taken away from us whether we like it or not and we need to cherish every little thing we have. The fresh air, the ability to see your friends, to even go on a shopping trip or a relax in the park watching the clouds. We are never ever alone and if you ever do feel alone, reach out to your support bubble or even reach out to me. ( Even if you're a stranger reading my posts, I have time for you and your words.)

I found the beauty of writing and a inner creative side of me that I have always wanted to find and broadcast. Lockdown has helped me take time for myself and has made me overcome writers block which I struggled with for years. We live in such a beautiful, productive community in London and I adore that. We have inspirations left right and centre who help you find your niche. We have learned how to adapt to these current situations by creating online festivals, online music events, the music scene has still been blossoming with new talents, new music and new ideas it's simply astonishing.

From cycling protests, illegal raves and online music events. They will not stop us, we as humans are too creative and powerful. I'm seeing new people learning new skills they would never of thought they'd enjoy, people becoming more active and healthy. We can over come this, this is just a blip in our lives and this will not last forever. Stay safe and I'll see you inna dance to bust a skank to some dirty riddims some day in the future. Happy new year and I'm glad you guys are coming into the new year with me. I miss you all. Love nancy x